Once upon a time, I was actually a pretty good runner. Nothing amazing, mind you, but I learned that I could run distance and was good at keeping a pace. Running was something I kind of fell into in college when I was really struggling with my weight. I was on a few different anti-convulsants and seizure meds throughout college and one of the major side effects was that I put on some weight that I could not get off no matter how hard I tried. I ran to just burn calories and try to maintain if not lose some weight. The summer before my senior year I worked as a nanny and got into the habit of running every morning before I went to work. I eventually had a base of four miles and was able to lose some weight.
Once I graduated, I moved to a new town and rented a house with a childhood friend and some other Christian girls. Two of those girls had serious running backgrounds, so it was easy to stay motivated when I saw my housemates running quite frequently. I had a relapse with my seizure disorder and running became a major outlet for stress for me. I did not have control over my work or career situation, was back on seizure meds and felt like my life was completely adrift but running was something I could have control over.
I finally ran my first race in 2006, the
Camp Pendleton Mud Run. My ambition and desire was to run a full marathon. I had seen numerous mailers for
Team in Training and loved the idea of running to raise money for cancer research. I had no idea how prophetic that desire would be when my own father was diagnosed with a form of blood cancer. I had motivation like I never had before in running. I was really proud of my training in that period and had a strong goal of finishing my marathon in under five hours. Despite hitting the wall badly at mile 22 and having to finish most of the race from that point on walking, I finished the
San Diego Rock n' Roll Marathon at 4:44:46 (chip time). I ran the Camp Pendleton Mud Run again that summer. My relationship with Eric was in the early stages and after that summer running was not as big of a priority. I was also having health issues that I now know were linked to my adrenal insufficiency. I did not have the energy or ability to be running.
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| 2007 Mud Run- Snagged this from my friend's Facebook account. I am the muddy girl with the hat on. |
Then life continues to goes on. In spring of 2008, Eric and I were planning our wedding and I was involved in a hit and run accident. I was rear ended and the person that hit me fled the scene. Fast forward about six months and I was a newlywed living in a new state and still trying to recover from the injuries from the car accident when I was rear ended
again in a chain reaction during icy road conditions. The first car fled the scene so it was considered another uninsured motorist/hit and run accident. Fortunately there have not been anymore accidents but it took a long time with physical therapy and chiropractic care to even think about running again. At one point, my pain control/orthopedic doctor told me to seriously think about not being able to run again. That was hard for me and I really had to surrender that to the Lord and give up my ambitions. The ambition itself was not bad but it had a place in my heart where it meant more than it should have, hence it was an idol.
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| Getting ready to line up. Power gel and my Camelbak. |
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| I am laughing that I actually posed all proudly with my medal with a Coca-Cola sign. |
In spring of 2010, I was slowly making progress and was starting on short runs of 2 miles. Then we got pregnant with the twins that summer and no high impact exercise was allowed. After that I was recovering from birth and all the moms reading this know what that can be like. Once I was staying home with the boys, I tried taking lots of walks and eventually got them loaded up into the jogging stroller. I was really out of shape and was able to run a mile at most without stopping for a walk break. I used the MapMyRun app on my phone and kept just trying to plug away. Then I finally hit the wall again in terms of my adrenal insufficiency. I started taking hydrocortisone again and within a couple weeks I was already feeling so much better. I just kept chipping away at the running and was running 2.0-2.5 miles without stopping. Mind you, this is with pushing about 50 lbs. of toddler plus the weight of the jogging stroller. I am an incredibly goal oriented person. Without clear goals or deadlines, I can totally procrastinate or fall into lazy behavior. I knew that if I was really going to improve with this running thing again that I was going to have to sign up for a race. I also had an unofficial New Year's resolution that I was going to run a race before 2012 was over. Originally I was aspiring to run a 5K back in June but then I started having the really bad fatigue and muscle pain and most of my summer was then trying to get healthy again. I looked into local events and saw that the Nevada Day 8K was at the end of October. That met the 2012 cut off that I was looking for.
All that to say that I am running the
Nevada Day 8K on Saturday. I am nervous but the good kind of nervous. I am excited and I am looking forward to having my hubby there. He has never seen me race so this is a big deal for me. Running is getting back to
me, a part of me, that I have not prioritized or not been able to do because of health issues and investing myself into my family. I want to set a good example for my kids and for my husband that health and fitness is important. I cannot wait to update you all on how I do! I have a time goal but I am telling myself to just be proud that I am able to run again. It has been a long journey back and I am grateful for the lessons I have learned about life along the way.